“1. Do not kill yourself. Killing yourself is very messy and your mother will cry over you. It is not beautiful or brave, and even if it was, you will not be around to see that. 

2. Washing your hair is going to be a chore. But you should do it anyway. Because you will feel better about yourself.

3. Get up late. Have a lay in. Sleep past your alarm. You have a very long life ahead of you and for now you should appreciate the cold side of your pillow.

4. He is going to break your heart but he’s just another male human who finds it hard to deal with Mondays, too. So in a month you’ll wake up and you won’t even remember that little scar on his knuckle you kissed.

5. Don’t spend hours looking up what your name means on google. Your name is your name and you should go out there and do heroic and good deeds and give your name your own meaning.

6. Don’t fight your demons. Your demons are here to teach you lessons. Sit down with your demons and have a drink and a chat and learn their names and talk about the burns on their fingers and scratches on their ankles. Some of them are very nice.

7. Music is good for your soul. Rap music will energise you and boost your ego and pop music will cheer you up. Indie music will make you think and emotional songs will make you cry and think about that boy again. It’s healthy.

8. Victim complexes are not attractive. Boys and girls will not date you because you are sad. They are not going to date you and kiss your aching bones and cure you of your dragging depression. Wake up. Take a bath. Do your hair. Be attractive.

9. Sadness is not poetic. Depression is not beautiful. Laying in bed all day and eating too much is lazy and disgusting and it is not tragic or pretty. Get up. Go outside. Let the sun warm your bones. Live.

10. If it makes you happy, buy twenty of it. Dedicate your life to it. Print it on tv shirts and collect things and draw art of it. Do not care what people think. They are the unhappy people you need to avoid. The abuse they will hurl at you is painless compared to how sad they are. Pity them. Remain happy.

11. You are allowed to he angry. But the world is not working against you. The flowers do not bloom for you and when your mother shouts ask her if she is okay instead of thinking she hates you. She never will. The world walks beside you and is silent. It does not trip you up or carry you.

12. Day and night cycles are natural. Humans only sleep at night because we used to avoid predators in the dark because of our poor eyesight. Stay awake until 5am watching bad reality shows. Wake up at 7pm and have breakfast.

 13. Eat when you are hungry. Being bored does not constitute a chocolate bar. Sleep with you are tired. Do not mindlessly obey the sleep at night rule. If you are not tired, do not sleep.”

—

Lapfoxs

¿Yo?En pedazos.

''Rosie.''

"Baby, I love you. Right now, you're my everything. You're perfect, you really are. You make me smile so much it's untrue. Some day I want to wake up to see your perfect smile beside me, I want to hold you close and feel your lips against mine. I'm sorry that sometimes I'm clingy and annoying. This is cheesy as fuck but I just needed to say it. I love you, princess, I know it may be a while before we meet, but I promise that the day we do, it will be as perfect as you! I miss you baby! <3 <3 <3 <3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx"

[16:14:52] Azgarth: I miss you...
[16:15:29] ▲·.†.Kat.·▽: i'm here :')
[16:15:42] Azgarth: I mean you being mine..

Note: I had tried my best to translate it to an English speaking audience to appreciate the meaning without losing the original Arabic lyrics.

ما ردت القدر يبعدني عنك يوم

I did not want fate to rob me of you

و ما ردت السعادة تعوف بيباني

For I did not want happiness to perish

يا ليل الأمان الـما تمره غيوم

Oh night, security is overshadowed by clouds that blew

و يا حضرة حنين بحضنة دفاني

And the yearning, how it finds my heart to cherish

يا اجمل قصيدة و بالوزن محكوم

For I dedicate to thee the most poetic lines

و يا اروع ندى على اوراق بستاني

How beautiful is the dew that drips from the leaves of our garden

يا نبع الكرم محتاجك اليوم

How I wish I could be in your vineyard’s vines!

مو تدري بغيابك وكعت اركاني

Oh (Father), you do not know how in your absence my heart can harden.

يا اجمل حلم وسط الجفن مرسوم

You are like a dream that I envision under my eyelids. 

رحت و الصور ظلت فوق حيطاني

You leave the world, but your portraits drape my walls

إلك حنيت يابه على بختك كوم

I miss you dearly; I am indebted to your sake

عفتني و يتمتني و ضاع عنواني

You have left me, and I have loss my identity as it falls

افز من نومي و اسمع صوتك المهموم

It is now, as if I wake and hear your worrisome voice

و أفقدك و ارجع اغرق ويه احزاني

For as I comprehend your absence, I am drowned in grief…

صرت انعاك و ابجي عليك دموم

I miss you dearly, and am drowned in tears. 

و اني القلم صار اليوم ينعاني

But now the pen writes down that very reverberation in brief.

ردت اجيك بس شبيدي عالمقسوم؟

And I wish I could have assisted you, but I cannot change your destiny

يالفركاك اذى كلبي و اذاني

And in your departure, it had crushed my heart entirely. 

بس انت صرت طير و بالجنة تحوم

But now you are like the dove that inhabits the heavens.

و هذا اللي مسكن نوحي و اشجاني

And this is what gives me tranquility and serenity

انجرحت بسمتي بلحظات الوداع 

However, my smile had faded in the final moments of your departure.

و عليها من رحت صب ملح الدموع

And with it had been become tears always drawn…

البارحه عيوني اشتاقت تشوفك

My eyes had longed to see you one more time

شأحطلها بغيابك لمن تجوع؟

But, now where shall I find warmth in this world now thou art gone?

ضوى انت و بيك دايخ الليل

You had illuminated my soul; even the night couldn’t handle your radiance

كسر بيه بغيابك فيّ الشموع

That I had rationed your light to ignite the candles of my darkest days

الشمعة البارحة جانت بينه تكود

The candle, had finally lost its very ambiance. 

ظلت من غير نار بـمستحة تموع

For it had also lost the flame that had it part ways. 

السبت البي مشيت شكد بجه وياي

I now spend my days lonely, and wish you were by my side.

و عليه نصبت عزه ايام الاسبوع

For all our walks had defined the glory of my weeks

بـسبتي شكد جنت بانيلك احلام

I now spend my days, through my dreams you reside. 

لأن بي جنت اشوفك احلى مشروع

For with your wisdom, I had reached the most infinite of peaks. 

إنزرع طيفك بـجفني و جلبت بي

Your image was burned in me, and will never go away. 

بـجفن غيري حرام تكلي مزروع

For an image of another (role model), they shall never replace you.

البيت الـعيشتني بي سلطان

It is the kingdom you built, that shall never allow us to go astray. 

صوته وداعتك ما جان مسموع

For now, it is empty of your voice and presence.

ثمن إعلان حبك دفعته الناس

And the price of my love  has been resonated with everyone around us.

و صفى يا للأسف بدموعي مدفوع

However, it is with the tears of my heart I pay. 

القصيدة تيتمت يابه من شمت جفاك 

The very poem has been orphaned by the image of thee

و بإذن ياهو اليمر خليتها تلوع

So that whoever sees it, can understand my agony

لو نفرض طفت نيران العيون 

To those who can see me afloat in the fire of my tears.

شيطفيلي نار الجوه الضلوع؟؟

For it shall never rise above the agony inside of me.  

COMO PERDER BARRIGA.

• Deja de tomar refrescos, solo bebe agua.
• Haz una rutina de alimentación
• Haz ejercicios abdominales todos los días.
• Corre todos los días

Dieta Dukan :D

FASE 1

EL ATAQUE CON LAS PROTEINAS PURAS (PP)

Este periodo es el más motivador, porque se ve como la aguja de la báscula desciende a una velocidad vertiginosa, un poco como si se ayunara. Este plan de ataque es verdaderamente eficaz.

En esta fase se consumirán las proteinas más puras posibles y se eliminarán al máximo todos los demás nutrientes.

En realidad, no es posible eliminar por completo de la alimentación los glúcidos y los lípidos: en efecto, aparte de la clara de huevo, no existe ningún alimento que consista sólo en proteínas. El régimen agrupará pues cierta cantidad de alimentos cuya composición es la más cercana posible a la pureza en proteínas, como por ejemplo ciertas categorías de carnes, de marisco, de aves de corral, de huevos, de lácteos con 0% de MG.

Duración: este periodo puede durar entre 1 y 10 días según el peso que haya que perder.

FASE 2

EL CRUCERO CON LAS PROTEÍNAS ALTERNATIVAS O PROTEÍNAS/VERDURAS (PV)

Esta segunda fase es indisociable de la primera, pues ambas funcionan en combinación. Se alternan periodos de proteínas + verduras con semanas de proteínas puras.

Tanto el primer régimen como el segundo ofrecen idéntica libertad total en cuanto a las cantidades. Ambos permiten consumir los alimentos autorizados “a voluntad”, en cualquier momento…

Veremos más adelante a qué ritmo hay que alternar estas dos dietas: dependerá del peso que haya que perder y de la edad, pero también de la motivación.

Duración: esta fase de crucero ha de mantenerse sin pausa hasta la obtención del peso deseado.

FASE 3

LA CONSOLIDACIÓN

La misión esencial de esta fase es volver a abrir la alimentación y estabilizarse. Podrás comer de modo más variado. Pero habrá que evitar el efecto rebote y el riesgo de recuperar peso. El organismo intentará resistirse, sobre todo si la pérdida de peso que acabas de conseguir es considerable. Reaccionará frente al saqueo de sus reservas y tratará de almacenarlas de nuevo: a tal efecto, reducirá al mínimo su gasto energético y asimilará al máximo cualquier alimento consumido. Una comida abundante que habrá tenido un efecto escaso antes del inicio del régimen estará repleta de consecuencias durante este periodo.

Por eso se limitará las cantidades de alimentos más ricos, para volver sin riesgos a la estabilidad del metabolismo y acabar con el efecto rebote, que es una de las causas más frecuentes del fracaso de los regímenes de adelgazamiento.

Duración: estará ligada a la cantidad de peso perdido y es muy fácil de calcular: 10 días de consolidación por kilo de peso perdido.

FASE 4

LA ESTABILIZACIÓN PARA SIEMPRE

Es muy importante seguir tratando a la persona que ha culminado la fase de consolidación, teniendo en cuenta su personalidad de antiguo “gordo”.

Protal, en esta cuarta fase, impone un día a la semana de régimen de ataque inicial (normalmente el jueves).

Duración: tanto tiempo como sea posible; lo mejor, toda la vida… Las escasas medidas de la fase 4 te permitirá comer igual que los demás sin volver a ganar peso.

El método DUKAN

Dr. Pierre Dukan

But if a mirror ever makes

you sad,

you should know

that it does

not know

you.

- Kabir

writing is safer, somehow

because my pen cannot stutter like my lips do,

and words get stuck in throats,

not fingertips, can’t stumble

on paper trails of blue lines

because writing is definite and clear

and no one can tell if i am crying

or laughing

through written words alone 

جميل

Isn’t it beautiful
When you smile at people
You don’t even know

Isn’t it beautiful
When you help someone
Even if the person didn’t asked for

Isn’t it beautiful
To tell someone he/she is pretty
Even if their faces are full of tears

Isn’t it beautiful
To bring someone to laugh
Even if the person feels sad

And Isn’t it beautiful
When people are doing the same to you
Just for the reason
to make each other happy

“

An eating disorder.

This is not about food.

This is not about looking good in a dress or wanting to be a supermodel. This is not about wanting the cute guys to turn their heads and stare at your beauty. This is not about going to a store, sliding a size zero skirt over your hipbones, and laughing all the way to the check out counter.

This is not about wanting attention. This is not about enjoying feeling death and refusing food until you need to be force fed with a tube in an ICU. It is not about deliberately pissing off the nurses on the ED unit by hiding your clif bar and boost under your sweatshirt and stashing butter in the bed pans. It is not about selfless starving for all the children in Africa. It is not about the latest fad diet or losing the holiday weight. It is not about reading fashion magazines and pining for the Body Mass Index of Paris Hilton’s pet Chihuahua. It is not about getting a good man/woman. It is not about religion, G-d, the media or culture.

This is about having the self-esteem of an insect. This is a polite way of committing suicide. This is about having no life because it’s impossible to go out with friends to a restaurant and order a bowl of dry lettuce. This is about weighing, measuring and counting pasta, cereal, raisins and anything that passes your lips, including toothpaste. This is about secrets and lies and shame. This is about not wanting to admit that you need to eat. That you deserve to live.

This is about being scared. This is about being terrified. Of everything.

This is about control. This is about numbing away the feelings of abuse. This is about starving away the pain. This is about wanting to disappear as to not be taken advantage of again. This is about hiding under layers of clothing that are mostly black so that no one sees your womanly body. This is about non verbal communication. This is about avoiding. This is about denying the past. This is about intense self hatred.

This is about needing so much that you can’t stand it. This is about wanting to not need anything at all. This is about not wanting to be touched but afraid to be let go. This is about having emotions that bubble up and spill out and scare people away. This is about being so overwhelmed and traumatized that it’s easier to avoid everything by obsessing over the amount of calories in a grapefruit. It is about getting lost in the mirror and scale instead taking responsibility and just f*cking dealing.

This is about wanting to be safe. This is about wanting to curl up in a nutshell and ignore the big bad world that’s too noisy and dangerous and can’t be trusted. This is about not trusting anyone and relying on food (or lack of) to give you an all enveloping comfort blanket when the feelings bloat you up and make you feel fat, ugly and intolerable in your skin.

This is about really crappy coping methods. This is about a way of life you’ve known for 13 years. This is about habit and second nature. This is about making a choice that will quite possibly kill you. This is about chaotic relationships, hospitalizations, devastated families, worried friends, treatment programs, trying and failing, and more hospitalizations. This is about losing your period, failed kidneys, and hollow bones. This is about cardiac arrest at age 21. This is about being sick. This is about not being sick enough to think you need, or agree to go into, treatment. This is about being so sick that you have to be court ordered into a hospital.

This is about trying to be understood. This is about fighting with all you’ve got and more hard work than you ever imagined. This is about exhaustion and tears and needing support. This is about fighting a battle with yourself and the world. This is about trying to survive.

This is not about food.

”

No tengo espacio para guardar tanto vacío.

Mi vida se resume en un constante ''lo siento'' ...

Y ahora,la tierra llora..